dear ergometer

this is awkward, isn't it? i had no idea you were going to be at the castle, too.

after what happened between us last summer (the good and the bad), i left thinking that the best thing for both of us would be to spend some time apart. imagine my surprise the first time i walked into the gym to find you sitting there silently, as composed, resolute, and unflinching as you were back in kingston. i will admit that my pride was wounded when i realized that those 8 torrid months we spent together last year seemed to leave no trace on you. it was like i had never happened. me? i still have the scars -- especially from the time i pulled that 2000m piece and fell on to the floor in exhaustion with my feet still pressed against you.

so how are we going to handle this? we both have to be here, and we both have to spend time in the gym. i know we went for a little spin the other night, and it was great (all the good things from last summer, most definitely), but i don't want to fall into the same pattern of loving and hating you with the intensity i have experienced in the past.

what do you propose we do?

s.

p.s. remember this?